Crazy, stupid, wonderful, beautiful life

Sometimes I think life is just too unpredictable and I don't like that I can't see the future. It's my future so, why can't I know it? I don't like not being able to know if I'm going to pass my BIO 108 class. I would like to know if I am ever going to have one true friend that would drop whatever they are doing to help me.
I think Shawna would do that for me. She's helped me through so much and she's my best friend. But Jessenia is also my best friend. And so is Kiahana. Sometimes I wish we could all be best friends and hang out with each other. But I doubt that will ever happen.
Life for me is getting better. I had a very good time at homecoming and I danced the night away. Even if I was dancing alone I was having a good time. I'm glad I went with Carlos. He's really cute too. But I don't think anything will happen between us due to the fact that he doesn't talk...EVER!
But anyways I think that when you're so low, you can only go up from that point. And that's my status. I'm going up and it can only get better!
I've been thinking that I need to see life in a more positive attitude. But for a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic.
When you expect the worst, you won't be disappointed when it happens. But if your hopes are high, they could get crushed like a peanut under a semi, in an instant. And I don't like feeling hurt.
Being hurt is like getting a little piece of you taken and hidden somewhere that you could never find. And there's only one thing big enough to fill the void that inside of you. And for me, it's just a breath of air. That's my go-to answer for everything. Just Breathe.