I think it's a bad trait to be curious. You know the saying, "Curiosity killed the cat." I think it's the truest statement anyone could ever say. I don't like trying to make myself better just to make someone else happy, but I do.
I was at the powderpuff game and I didn't hear it, but someone yelled, "Whitney Waters is ugly." And my friend told me. Honestly, I could've gone my whole life without knowing that someone said that about me. I reacted kind of bad. I went home and cried. I don't know why that made me sad. I usually don't care about what people think about me, but lately I've been trying to please so many people that I can't stand the stress anymore. I feel like i've lost myself this year. I don't know how people can judge me, when they don't even know me. I don't even know who I am anymore.
And I feel like every person I put my trust in, they always fail me. My homecoming date was from rock falls. He dropped out of school and his dad won't let him go to sterling's homecoming.
So I was kind of freaking out yesterday. But I found a different date, and he's from this school. So hopefully it goes well.
Clearly I was wrong about the "friends" I have. My best friend won't talk to me and I don't know what I even did to her.
For some reason, I'm just going through the motions of high school. Not fully experiencing the ride, just riding along in the backseat. I feel really alone at some points because I have no one to talk to.
Tough story to tell, and I feel for you; I hate those moments. I like that you point out you don't which is worse--that someone would say that or that your friend felt the need to tell you. Your last sentiment, the line "for some reason, i'm just going through the motions of high school. not fully experiencing the ride, just riding along in the backseat," is great. Make sure you're proofreading, though. I realize this is inherently a pretty informal space, but I still want you to watch your punctuation and capitals.
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